Lent is a time for reflecting; for those of you that don’t know Lent is the time that immediately precedes the Easter celebration in the Christian calendar. It is a period of six weeks when Christians are encouraged to “fast” or “give up” certain things, which could be chocolate, television, social media etc and also to “do” more – give more financially, give more time, be more prayerful. It is about waiting and preparing for everything to be made new in the risen Christ. Essentially, it’s about re focusing and then continuing your work as a Christian to make “on heaven as it is on earth” a reality.
The Lent course this year was around communicating: how we as Christians communicate with others about our faith and the example we set etc. I completed a few exercises; one of which was entitled “What makes it difficult to talk about your faith?” we were encouraged to talk amongst ourselves in a small group and write examples down. I completed the Lent course by myself and not with the small group as I simply couldn’t commit to it with the starting of my new job.
This was an easy exercise for me, here are my fears when I discuss my faith with others:
- That people will make snap judgments about me and what I “must think” or “must be like” as a Christian;
- Fear that people will think I am not very intelligent. What I mean by this is the fear that people will think I do not question or have doubts, that I believe some “story book” as the truth and that I am therefore not very clever. This could not be further from the truth, I have lots of questions and doubts and constantly read around the subject of theology;
- Fear that people will think that I think that I am better than them, or that I think that only Christians can be good people (um, no.) or that I think that I am a really good person and that they are somehow lacking. None of this could be further from the truth.
So those are my fears, however, actually, when people ask me and I tell them, honestly, they don’t (seem to) think these things so I guess it’s just my fears and anxieties talking. So many of my friends have messaged me or text me to say nice things about my posts on here, or to ask questions, and everyone has been kind about my faith, so I plan on continuing to be honest on here and not hiding this part of me away, because it’s a pretty big part of who I am.